The 28th already, and the the fifth month of this year starts, and yet it still feels like the beginning of the year for me, and not in other ways. The work is piling on, but in a way that is both stressful and also eye opening. There are so many things to learn, and also re-educate myself on. Zyan gets bouncier and bouncier, and I am currently the week off due to overdoing it at Crossfit and so I feel my age, but also inexperienced, and its a surreal feeling. I also did my first South Asian mixer in decades, and it felt right as now was the time to talk to others like me who are people of color, but also from south asian.
It felt odd in a way because back in the day I was all about the indian scene, more like the music scene, up on the music, the goal to start my own record label, to not practice, to just start my little conglomerate. My over confidence and ignore shame me now, embarrass me in ways, yet it also gave me the very network that feeds my legal practice. All was not for naught.
And so another month comes to an end but I still feel at the beginning of the race, still tying my shoelaces, still learning, still looking, pondering and wondering if this dream of mine is just an illusion or the foundation of something much bigger. Only time will tell.
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