It amazes me how freeing it can be when you acknowledge the locks you have in your life. From hesitating on working out in the mornings to blindly charging over $100 in Starbucks coffee, I am slowly seeing the things that are holding me captive to a financial flat line. I see the locks now, and now each action of mine is becoming deliberative and it hurts my heart to see how much I have wasted on value-less items. It was is I was filling up my world with things to give myself value when deep down I knew that my worth was more than the blue tooth headphones I use at the gym.
Marriage can do that to you. Sharing finances with someone who I love so much was scary at first but her kindness and gentle humor at the silly things I used to spend as loosened the lock of fear I had. Now I just have to stick to a budget so we can truly accomplish the things we want most in this world: security, charity and maturity.