Visakhi

One of the main joys with Zyan is all the firsts he gets to experience which we benefit from greatly. Even thought he wasnt feeling 100%, we still managed to get him to the gurudwara (albeit late), and watched him take in the crowds as he wandered around. He is so eager to see it all. His walks mostly uncontrolled running about on his toes. He screamed occasionally (his new thing) at the unjustness of me stopping him going onto the street.

Yet the entire time there, I couldn’t stop expressing gratitude for even having these moments with him. A pang of hurt still reverberates as the ones that will never get a chance to see him, but its softened by his giggles and kisses. So much of the. year feels like its speeding along, and time with him so short. Each morning is one less that I will get in the future and that drives me forward to make them better.

Visakhi represents renewal, rebirth, gratitude, and the birth of the Khalsa where its recognized the need of unity and the great things we can achieve together. All massive things on their own, and to share a day like that with my son just makes it even bigger. I also get to teach him what this day means at some point which means I get to live it in the way so its more real life than lecture.

Each thing represents now a way for me to live and learn from so I can teach it forward. That’s a deal I can live with. Happy Visakhi!