Waking up on this today was different for once. Instead of just celebrating all the wonderful fathers and father figures,. I got to experience the love, gratitude and blessings from so many for my first Fathers Day. Of course, as I stared into Zyan’s eyes, my only other wish was for Papa to see him, to know that he will learn all the things that Papa passed onto me, from my love of music, to enjoying the first rays of the morning sun. I will teach him to be open to trying new things, to act silly no matter what age, to open to laughing at a moments notice, to show your love publicly for those who bring you joy. To be around family, and not just the immediate ones.
For a moment, my heart contracts so hard with grief, that it hurts physically. But then Zyan comes into my view, and the pain lessens. I now get to be Papa. That feeling comes instills responsibility in me, makes me want to be a better father, to impart all the goodness I inherited, to avoid my mistakes, to be open to learning, and to act with the aim of showing him all that is possible.
The day flew by as we celebrated so many great fathers, and being surrounded by so many people while receiving multiple messages for my first Fathers Day filled my heart with lasting gratitude. Besides that, my wife’s beautiful and thoughtful gifts filled me to overflowing and made me want to ensure that we keep appreciating and acknowledging each other on this new journey of ours.
It was an amazing day, made even better with the people in it, and I cannot wait for more celebrations to follow.
I hope yours was as memorable as mine! Happy Monday!
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