It’s a slippery slope some times to get back to an old life with new promises and ideals when more than anything else, I want to avoid some things that were not good. Before getting sick, I was unmotivated, unorganized, stuck in a daily battle of some sort or another. Back in the reins of work, I realize that just have a to do list is meaningless when the list is not producing, it’s just a list of things meant to fill up the day. ((Taken from Getting Things Done by David Allen)
I realize now that it takes work getting organized, and getting the most out of my routine. No longer am I bored, but I have to be careful not get overwhelmed and there are so many things I want to achieve. From the one to one class, to the ADP training to doing more in HR, I know I have lots to learn but more so than that to DO. The learning part is almost easy and even fun, but it’s the implementation that’s tough. I am still in that mode of surface satisfaction rather than the deeper dive into getting better.
I keep forgetting to breath, to let go, to not get lost in anger (she can attest to that) or lost in the details of accumulating details and tasks and asking myself where is it that I wish to end up? That’s the real question, the only question really. So I need to keep climbing that slope knowing that some days I will slip back into the mud but other days, I will be free.
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