You ever feel like this priest, braving the world whipping around and the only thing holding you steady is your vision? Or perhaps to you he seems like he has already given up, to others lost and perhaps to some, indifferent. My point is simple, we are who we perceive ourselves to be. Lately, I have had to made adjustments or (perhaps some would say corrections) to the things that I have allowed myself to be overwhelmed with. Too often, I have gotten involved in other’s lives, whether they asked to or not and realized that I am unwanted. In my quest to be all holy, I forgot one key things: let others live.
I have allowed too many small things to crowd my heart and soul when I already know what makes me happy (family, Preeti, working out, working, reading and friends). If I just concentrate on just that, I have a plate full of memories and loving people. If I constantly bitch and whine about others not responding, it is perhaps that I have created a barrier that will only heal with time. I have to let things be and focus on who I want to be. Realizing just that has eased so much of my tension that I now really wish to just focus on the ones close to me. Of course, I define who those are, and while some relationships and friendships are natural, there are others created due to obligation and some because of distance. Each deserves attention but mostly each needs its own space. Not all friendships are meant to be combined, especially when their from key periods in your life that only you have experienced.
So now that I have allowed myself that space, I can truly enjoy the people in my life, albeit some from afar (as it should be) and some ignored (to save my sanity) while the rest growing into (hopefully) life long relationships.
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