As I look at the beautiful picture done by my best friend Jemal, I realize how lucky I am to have the people I have in my life. Sure, there were some days when I felt as if I was besieged and just taken advantage of, yet the reality was that no one did anything out of the ordinary. It’s just that my perception of life has made question some basic things in my life such who are my friends? I put so much importance in being liked that I forgot that no one can make you bad about yourself without your consent.
I realize now that I was unhappy with myself, and for that the only changed that was needed on my ability to deal with it. Work has transformed into something I want to expand on, going out on new things a passion, working out so I can get the body I want a habit that I am unwilling to compromise for anyone. I am now also around people who enable me my good habits rather than regret my past and my new decisions in life. There are some in my life who are so unhappy with themselves that nothing I say or do can change that. You know what, that’s their problem not mine.
I cannot change anyone except for myself, and until I do I will constantly be worried or annoyed about things that do not matter. There are some near me in need of severe guidance but it’s not my job to fix them. As hard as that is sometimes to recognize, I now know that I can only be there if needed or asked. I was overly involved or affected by others and their habits when in fact the real culprit was my frustration with my failures or inability to get things done. I can only be a bridge if people choose to use me as that tool. I cannot force them to do things that they are unwilling or incapable of doing. Does that mean I don’t care? No, just that I no longer will interfere. Just like the beautiful bridge, I will be here for the crossing when asked. 🙂