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April (By the Numbers)

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With a new month come the opportunity to see how I did last month. Some things were the same, some better and some worse. I realize now that some habits I aimed for worked much better on the weekdays than the weekends (like drinking or learning), and others I needed to make more of an effort on others(being vulnerable, writing one words). I managed perfect attendance on meditation and reading, and its fair to say that they have become permanent habits, but I cheated a bit as I am a bathroom reader, and so I can hit that habit all day long. So I get to be more specific. It has to be more than the New Yorker when I am crapping, reading has to be the books that I have checked out or the Scientific American magazine which forces me to learn new ideas.

Yet there are habits that I did a lot better in (25 pushups and practicing Spanish) where I came close to perfection (missing only a day the previous month). But then I need to also improve my stretching and exercise goals since I am only got in 16 and 18 days respectively which tells me that I am skimping on the self care. When I don’t take care of my body, it affects me in other ways. Low energy, eating like crap. and giving into carelessness and not being present.

It takes work to keep harder habits, and I also know that it is a reminder of the gaps in my life. Whenever I am doing a habit only half the time, I know I am either not paying attention or I am avoiding it. Take Not drinking on weekdays for example. In theory it sounds simple enough but when I get calls for boys nights out or Taco Tuesday or friends come over, it becomes a lot harder. And then the harder question is friday a weekday (pf course it is) but its also part of the start of the weekend and so I continually struggle with that.

Its the whole point of this exercise, to see the gaps and to get better (hopefully). I hope to see better numbers in May. Happy Monday!

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