Brownness

New Month New Me?

A new month always brings a form of excitement and panic for me. I look at the my year goals and realize with some I am well on my ways and on others I haven’t looked at them since the beginning. Then begins the self-doubt and beating myself for  not doing enough. And then it turns into a whirlwind of emotions and ideas and thoughts and then I take a pause. A breath. Then one more. Then a longer one. And as I calm down I am grateful for all that I have managed. I reflect on what I got to do and how far I have come.

As to the items I haven’t gotten to, I acknowledge my breakdown, but it’s also a time to reassess. If someone is continually overlooked every month, maybe it is not as important to me as I thought or maybe, just maybe, I am scared. And if that’s the reason it means I have to get to it now rather than later. so I start this month with gratitude and hope.

I hope you do, too!

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