This past week, my family found out about a betrayal that really shook us up. I wish I go into details for those of you who love gossip (and the betrayers), but I also know that will just make things worse. All week, I have watched the hurt on my parents face’s. I know my best friend doesn’t understand what the big deal is. At first, I was annoyed with him but yesterday I watched Soul Connection 34 by BK Shivani which happened to be on Betrayal and Forgiveness (no such as coincidence as Sumita would say). In a nutshell, the episode states that when we say someone has betrayed our trust, what we really mean is that they have behaved differently from how we want them to be. And all we are doing is creating negative emotions and energy that hurt us not the other person. What we really need to do is forgive ourselves.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that what the betrayers did was right, but our negative feelings only make us feel lower. They make us less calm. They make us drift from the present. They make me want to yell, shout and really wonder what family means. To me, it has become quite clear who my family is, and while there are some in my life who feel like they will never be family, what they don’t know is that they are even closer. As if I breathe them with each thought and feeling in my life. I almost wish they could read my soul, but I digress.
And to the ones who picked money over family, they just don’t exist in my life anymore. They cut the cord, and instead of me hanging on or around, I am letting them go. I wish I was big enough to wish them luck, but they have made it clear that they want nothing from me or my family. So Goodbye it is. May you find what you are looking for.
- Betrayal (mrdancy.wordpress.com)
2 thoughts on “Family and Betrayal”
love you more for being a bigger person and reinstating my belief in that we can only work on ourselves instead of others.
Wow. Powerful writing. I don’t know the nature of the “betrayal”, but, clearly, it was a profound and shocking blow to you, and your writing makes very clear your hurt, and your deep compassion.
On another level, it is the most felt writing I have read of yours. When you tap into these intense emotions, your writing is riveting. Please consider taking this awful hurt and turning it into the creative outlet you are obviously so primed for.
I am sorry that your news here is so painful, but you have already transcended it. I wish you well, always, Sanjay. Good to hear from you, even the painful stuff.