Sometimes words can do more damage to your soul and personality that it can take months to repair the person you thought you were. Recently, I inflicted serious emotional injuries on someone very close to me, not realizing that instead of being there as a person, I became an aloof prick . The change was not sudden, but sad to say it took me a few days to see how far I had drifted on the person I used to be. What is the point of growing up or having all the material wealth in the word when I managed to push people who fill my heart and soul with love?
In just a few minutes, I created a fence for that special someone who is now barbed with hurt, distrust but most of all disbelief that I could be this way. The excuses are many, but the reality is I forgot for a bit how incredibly lucky I am to have the people I do in my life. Sure, there are some new additions but I have been truly given gifts that I have not treated invaluable
In the end, words are easy to say and fling around but the journey back to love will take time, and I will need to once again prove why I am the best choice. It has not helped at all that what I did was in front of people who think very less of me now, and it definitely has taken away a lot of the privacy I desired (ironic, I know since I am blogging about it but here at least it’s in generalities). Now, I have to face some when all I want to do is wish I was invisible and never be seen again. But I deserve it so it shall be. The fence was created by me, and instead of keeping someone close to me, I managed to create a divide…
- Fenced in (lovelucysummers.wordpress.com)