Yesterday, marked the halfway point for 2011. I was surprised to see that reminder from the Change Anything blog (changeanything.com) a book that I am currently reading, not because I had not followed through on my New Years resolution.com but mainly because I had stayed the course. I lost weight, I started reading again, planned and took a few trips and wrote some. I did not just have one resolution but many and I am sticking to them not because I wanted to because I needed to. In the past few years, I have begun to feel less like myself and more a social being trying to please others and you know what, it fucking sucks! I much rather be in the days when I was true to my vision and focus and did what I pleased but then I realized that was not ideal either as I often did events that made much less money than I expected. I never did find the balance of running a successful promotion company and label, and a personal life. But few years back, I felt like I had sold myself out just to be successful but even writing that does not feel true. The reality is that I always managed to get to the halfway but somewhere, somehow, I get derailed before getting to the end, and that is what worries me. Losing focus. My dream is to be the person I have always imagined myself to be, and at 39, I don’t have much time before I am defined by the years behind me.
So here’s to being halfway there, sticking to my guns and being the person I have always imagined myself to be. Wish me luck.
- New Year’s Resolutions: A Midpoint Analysis (inurbase.wordpress.com)
- Half-Full (walkietalkiebookclub.wordpress.com)
- Halfway there (scrapbooklady.typepad.com)